Just shoot me

I apologize in advance for the excessive punctuation.....

Truth be told, I’m stressed right now. So I thought maybe writing things out will help me, and put a damper on my obsessive mind. Here’s what’s stressing me out:

1) USMLE USMLE USMLE

2) This weekend I’m going to check out the housing I will be living in for the next six weeks…..decisions decisions…..I have to decide between 1 of 2 places – each have their pros and cons. I’ve been living on my brother’s couch for the past week…..and I’m starting to get a little squirrely.

3) I just got my start dates for my core clinical rotations – AUG 13^th! I want to cry right now, its just too early, I thought I wouldn’t be starting until the end of august/beginning of September. This early start date snowballs an entire cataclysmic series of things to stress about.

4) Now I have to really get on the apartment/car/visa issues/getting my life together thing.

5) &*#$! My summer is shot! I need a tattoo on my hand reminding me not to get my hopes up for anything these days!

6) I friggin hate this smog %@& I’m inhaling every time I go outside to exercise.

7) I hate when people don’t email me back…..lazy $&*#ers!

My rational mind is telling me there is no need for the level of stress I’m experiencing. The only thing I should be stressed about right now is the USMLE. Everything else doesn’t need to be worried about until after that event (July 12^th). But damn, reading that start date this morning really threw me off! I just have to breathe right now. Breath and study, breath and study……………………..my mommy is visiting this afternoon, lets hope this decreases the stress (but it could go either way).